Saturday, January 23, 2010
being in the 9th month
Oh my, am I ready! I really can't complain. I am healthy, baby girl is doing great and we are full term! But oh boy do I feel badly for those that live with me right now. My moods are crazy. My sleeping erratic and my energy is pretty much non-existence. I wrote a blog earlier about some of what makes pregnancy hard, and I have to say that as you come to the end, it can be just as rough. I know it comes with the territory, but my husband and son really don't deserve the wife and mom they are getting right now. I long to have this baby in my arms, to get back to having energy and patience with my son, to help my husband keep up with the house, to reconnecting with friends, to taking Z to the library... oh, I could go on and on. I said at the beginning that I really can't complain, and I don't mean to. Being pregnant is a beautiful thing. Watching my stomach move around and feeling this life inside of me is beyond words, but what pregnancy itself does to my body is so hard. Lord, bless my husband for his love, patience an encouragement of me during this time. Bless my son for trying to understand why mom can't sit on the floor and play and what is changing about our family. Bless me and forgive me as I try to find energy, patience and strength to get through these next few weeks. I am so thankful for my husband, son and daughter. May I prove worthy of such gifts.