Saturday, January 23, 2010

being in the 9th month

Feeling faces Oh my, am I ready!  I really can't complain.  I am healthy, baby girl is doing great and we are full term!  But oh boy do I feel badly for those that live with me right now.  My moods are crazy.  My sleeping erratic and my energy is pretty much non-existence.  I wrote a blog earlier about some of what makes pregnancy hard, and I have to say that as you come to the end, it can be just as rough.  I know it comes with the territory, but my husband and son really don't deserve the wife and mom they are getting right now.  I long to have this baby in my arms, to get back to having energy and patience with my son, to help my husband keep up with the house, to reconnecting with friends, to taking Z to the library...  oh, I could go on and on.  I said at the beginning that I really can't complain, and I don't mean to.  Being pregnant is a beautiful thing.  Watching my stomach move around and feeling this life inside of me is beyond words, but what pregnancy itself does to my body is so hard. Lord, bless my husband for his love, patience an encouragement of me during this time.  Bless my son for trying to understand why mom can't sit on the floor and play and what is changing about our family.  Bless me and forgive me as I try to find energy, patience and strength to get through these next few weeks. I am so thankful for my husband, son and daughter.  May I prove worthy of such gifts.

2 comments:

  1. Don't think for a second that I do not feel blessed to call you my wife. Zachary and I could not ask for anyone better to be who you are to us. I know this has been a long road, but it will ABSOLUTELY be worth it!

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  2. Carrie @ comfortedbyGod.blogspot.com

    I found your blog through Outnumbered Mom...

    Your husband wrote such a sweet comment! I have three children, the youngest is 5. I totally remember the mood swings, impatience and the feeling that everyone around me is tip-toeing!

    I'm not pregnant, but I've had similar experiences with chronic illness. The disease I have causes a lot of pain, so I'm often irritable and short-tempered. I've had to pray A LOT, asking God to be in control of my emotions (and not pain be the leader). It's very hard to feel out-of-control isn't it?

    I'll pray for you today, Michelle (really!)

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