Are you a mother of a toddler? Is your life a roller coaster ride like mine?
One day Z can be pleasant and fun. We play, laugh and he brings me such joy.
The next day, sometimes the next minute, he can have me pulling out my hair. I feel like I am constantly disciplining him and by nap time or bed time, I am exhausted!
That's life for me as a mother of a toddler!
So when Nonnie and Poppie (my in-laws) offer to take Z for the weekend, how can I refuse? Some quiet time (if Marin is not crying), being able to do some reading, cleaning or just sitting instead of running after a 3 year old. Sounds so nice! I might even do some baking!
But today, as I was saying good-bye to my son, I found myself holding back tears. Now I know he is in great hands. He was SO excited to go to Nonnie and Poppies' house and my in-laws love him so much. He will have so much fun, be so loved and well taken care of. I have no worries with that. But at the moment I watched their car pull away, I missed my little boy. I keep hearing him say "Mommy, are you coming to Nonnie and Poppie's house too?" uugghhh, my heartstrings! Of course he didn't seem upset at all when I told him I was going home, but it still struck at my heart.
So here I sit at home, thinking about him. Oh, I am enjoying the quiet, but in a way it seems too quiet. That boy is just a part of me. I would do anything for him. And I just can't wait to wrap my arms around him on Sunday when he comes home. I just can't imagine what my life would be like without him and my heart weeps for those who experience that. There are just no words.
That's the thing about being a mom. I wouldn't change it for anything. Yes, I have days of craziness, exhaustion and frustration, but it is all worth it. I love my kids. I love my husband. I love my life. Even on those "days, I love my toddler with an unconditional love. His smile warms my heart. His laugh makes me smile, and his witty way with words leaves me speechless.
I will enjoy this time. I will get lots of things done around this house. I plan to do some fun things with my little girl. But I can't wait till Sunday, when my family will be back together again.
I love my life with my toddler, as roller-coaster like as it is!
I love my life! Thank you, Jesus!